A facetime call

A Facetime Call

We are out for a walk first thing and are chatting about the possibility of a Facetime meetup with a D/s friend we have. We have not had a face to face meeting yet and I say that I feel nervous about it. This is always the case with me. […]

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submissive mindset

Submissive mindset and other thinking parts

So what is a submissive mindset? Generally there is quite a bit of reference on D/s sites to mindset. To me, having a submissive mindset is about the way that I think. It is a state that I am in which is determined by what is going on around about […]

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Inside my head

Inside my head

My head is my retreat. I escape inside my head all of the time, wasting minutes and hours and days. I say wasted because not all of what is going on in my head is useful, but I retreat there none-the-less.  It is my place, my quiet space, although really […]

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Pleasure and subspace

Pleasure and subspace

For me, deep submission brings pleasure at its ultimate. It is a letting go of myself and the freedom that comes from that. My need for control means that actually I don’t seem to get properly lost in pleasure unless I have given control of myself up completely. I need […]

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Do you really want to hurt me?

I have been hurt sexually before. It wasn’t pleasant. It has happened in a few different ways but I think the thing that hurt me most was rejection. Not an outright knock back, but that night after night realisation that, despite offering everything up, it was not going to happen. […]

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