Fear, insecurity, anxiety and self-doubt

There’s a fear. Fear of falling behind, of not meeting others’ expectations of me, of being left behind because I am just too slow and not good enough to keep up. And that is my life. I am well and truly over committed and falling behind; not meeting my own […]

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Why Dominance Turns Me On

Why Dominance turns me on

More and more I am realising that it is Dominance that turns me on. I am not sure why I am surprised about this as it was one of the things which initially encouraged me to ask HL to be my Dominant, but I at points we have got lost […]

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Blackboard with Sex in Class - so what are we teaching?

Sex in Class

Sex Ed when I was at school was not very thorough at all. In fact I can’t really remember much more than the basics being taught in science. From memory it was section 6.6 and there was always a lot of talk, and a lot of build up, and then […]

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reading sexuality and submission

Reading, sexuality and submission

Reading can spur a lot of erotic emotions, thoughts, and actions. Write about the books, magazines, or other reading materials that have shaped your sexuality. The first book to shape my sexuality was Nancy Friday’s ‘Forbidden Flowers’. I had masturbated before, and had even orgasmed before I knew what it […]

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Do you really want to hurt me?

I have been hurt sexually before. It wasn’t pleasant. It has happened in a few different ways but I think the thing that hurt me most was rejection. Not an outright knock back, but that night after night realisation that, despite offering everything up, it was not going to happen. […]

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