My journey really began when I met HL. He wasn’t HL back then of course, but without knowing it, I saw the part of him that HL would become. There was something about him and the way we interacted. It was exciting, it was full of promise and it felt […]
The first thing with Sir is that he can catch me, and the second is that I know that he will catch me. This is reassuring to say the least; I trust him implicitly and he has never knowingly let me down. However, sometimes it is hard to catch someone […]
I decided to that it would be useful to think about the past two years living as a submissive wife. I guess that really what I want to think about it how far I have come and where I am going to go next. I have always believed that relationships […]
I think that for most women, being desired makes them feel sexy. That ‘I want you to want me’ idea still reigns strong and sometimes that can be a hard thing to find. The drudge of daily life can drag you down and mean that you begin to feel a […]
Patience is a virtue; not one that I would ever have attributed to myself readily, however. And yet, I can wait sometimes. And I do believe that I have learnt better patience through my submission. When we first began this lifestyle I wanted to run with it all. But to […]
Sir just told me that he would like to use some pictures of me on his blog. Mad panic. I know I am not meant to tell him no, but I told him no. I think the submissive in me was shaking in the wardrobe looking for a floor length […]
I thought I would write about my frienD/s as I have been thinking a lot about real frienD/ship recently. By frienD/s I mean the people who I chat with regularly, who have supported my journey, who are aware of my submission and who follow a similar lifestyle. These people have […]
I feel like I have posted a lot about going back to work and feeling tired. Actually, maybe it is more that I have been mad busy back at work and I haven’t posted much at all because of it. Anyway work has come between me and the things that […]
I think I would have to describe this past week as a week of maintenance D/s, if such a thing exists. It hasn’t been full on, in your face bells and whistles that is for sure, but rather bubbling away under the surface, an ever present part of what we […]
I want to share with you a letter that I sent to my Sir yesterday. The purpose of doing this is to show that not everything can ever be positive all of the time. Any relationship, especially one with rewards as good as ours, is hard work sometimes. We are […]
What you will have realised from reading my blog so far is that I am married (to my husband and Dominant), we are in a monogamous relationship, and I am a submissive. We are both in our 40s, we have a blended family and we live in the UK. We […]
The night before last, Sir became unwell. This resulted in a journey to the hospital emergency department in an ambulance. For most of the night we remained there while they conducted various tests and in the end discovered that he had gall stones and would need to be moved to […]
Letting go of control was hard (and I would be lying if I did not say that it sometimes still is!!!) When I met the man who is now my Dom, I was living as a single parent and had control over pretty much all aspects of my life (acts […]
I think that being kinky is something that you are and not something you become, although the realisation that not everyone feels as you do and wants to do the things that you do can mean that you don’t always get to explore as you might. I remember even as […]
In addition to the rules, rituals and tasks that we agreed to take on as part of our commitment to a D/s lifestyle, we also had a set of protocols designed around play and scenes. In terms of setting limits, we worked on a limits list quite early on […]
Starting out on my D/s journey was both exciting and nerve wracking at the same time. Having realised in a lightbulb moment that what I had felt for a long time was because I was (or needed/wanted to be) a submissive, was just the first step. I still had to […]
I hear you come home. I am waiting. You walk in and fill the room. I am overwhelmed by what I feel. I want you, and to be yours. I can’t express it as I wish and want to bottle these feelings for a time when I can show you […]
At the beginning of our D/s Sir set me a task to work on kneeling and practising breathing and meditation. I was also to train to become proficient in 9 positions of submission so that they became a natural and key part of our power exchange. We have used these […]
In 2012, I realised that I was a submissive. In some ways this came as a bit of a surprise to me; I had always been strong and independent and felt safest when I was in control. In other ways, however, this made perfect sense; the fantasies I felt were […]