This is a submissive journal with posts detailing the highs and the lows of loving and living as a submissive wife in a full time Dominant submissive relationship. Made up of thoughts and discoveries about what submission means to us, it tells of a journey into the love, the kink and the connection.
This past year has been a bit of a storm in terms of what it has brought us: challenge, loss, grief, confusion, anger, stress, you name it. All negative emotions. What it hasn’t brought us is sex, kinky naughty delicious sex. In fact, the things we have dealt with have […]
Recently I wrote about the disconnect I have experienced from myself and the way I have been thinking about my motivations for some of the things I do. One of these areas has been photography, the pictures that we choose to share, and the shape of things to come. I […]
I feel that I am out of sync with myself. By that I mean the self who exists here, who exists as the author of this blog. That self is also my submissive self and I am out of sync with her too. Not that I have given up on […]
This post is part of the back to basics focus that HL and I have for our D/s this year. I started by looking in general terms at myself as a submissive and from our shared reflection and discussion, we identified mindset as being something we both wanted to address. By submissive mindset I mean […]
It has been a hard week for us. We have had some difficult things to deal with and I can say with certainty that we are not over the worst. A positive to come out of this though is the way that we feel about each other. Despite trying to […]
Setting Some Submissive Goals This is the third part in response to Setting Goals for D/s. It is not the final part because we will use our reflection to agree some joint goals and HL is still working through his. However, doing this has thrown up some things for me […]
This is the second part of my response to Setting Goals for D/s which is part of a new Dom Sub Workbook I am creating over on The SafeworD/s Club. Part 1 was about my positive Submissive Traits and Qualities and also about the negatives ones which can be barriers. […]
HL and I were discussing goals for our D/s this morning. From that, I decided to reflect a bit and wrote a post for The SWC about setting goals which I hope to make into a Dom sub workbook. Having started the task myself, I realise that what I have […]
2020 has been quite the year. I have written a bit about some of the negatives that have occurred but I have found that each has brought me some positives too, whether that be in the real world or the online world. Essentially this has been in the form of […]
I love Christmas. I like winter and the feeling that it is cold and frosty outside, and warm and cheery inside. The homemaker in me wants to throw all I have into Christmas and open up my doors to anyone who need or wants it. I do that to an […]
I know it seems odd to write a post about why nipple play isn’t for me. I am usually positive about most types of play but really nipple play just doesn’t do it for me these days. I could say that this was always the case. And actually going back […]
2020 has been such a year. It is hardly conceivable to imagine this time last year that we would be sat where we are right now. Unprecedented is the word on everyone’s lips and it is the only word really which seems to fit. I have written a lot about […]
I have been meaning to do the D/s Diary Project for a while but one thing has led to another and it has never quite happened. The purpose is to provide a snapshot into my life as a submissive wife. I am married to my Dominant, HisLordship and we have […]
Simple Sunday is the best. It has been quite a week and it feels good to take some time for us just to be. I am glad to have HL to guide and protect me. Together the world feels better: we celebrate each other’s successes and support during those difficult […]
I could hear his voice and that became my grounding, my root. I listened and he kept me with him although the words were just like a caress over my skin as they didn’t seem to lodge in my brain to be understood or to have a purpose. In fact […]
I have written generally about limits and boundaries in a post for The SafeworD/s Club. I wanted to make this post more personal to me and about a bit of a defining moment concerning my submission. More specifically it is concerning my submissive headspace, or my submissive space as I […]
Finding my Personality Type Influenced by my friends, I decided to take a personality test. The personality types are based around the Myers Briggs Type Indicator, which is something we use a version of at school with the pupils. I have taken the test with them and you come out […]
HL enjoys taking pictures of me. It can be a real connector although it is something that I have also struggled with. Because of the way I feel about myself it is easier to drift off and not really focus on the way that I am perceived in the present. […]
I think it was probably evident from my second to last post that life was getting on top of me. The propensity to adult and deal with adult things has been high. I feel I have hardly switched off and, where D/s would be my usual release, the times seem […]
During the first few years of submission I dipped in and out of keeping a submissive journal. It seemed like the right thing to do. I read that it was and I was told that it was, so like the good little submissive I was, I tried it. I can’t […]