silver linings

Silver Linings and Giving Thanks

2020 has been such a year. It is hardly conceivable to imagine this time last year that we would be sat where we are right now. Unprecedented is the word on everyone’s lips and it is the only word really which seems to fit. I have written a lot about […]

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diary of a submissive

Diary of a Submissive Wife

I have been meaning to do the D/s Diary Project for a while but one thing has led to another and it has never quite happened. The purpose is to provide a snapshot into my life as a submissive wife. I am married to my Dominant, HisLordship and we have […]

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A simple sunday from the past

Simple Sunday

Simple Sunday is the best. It has been quite a week and it feels good to take some time for us just to be. I am glad to have HL to guide and protect me. Together the world feels better: we celebrate each other’s successes and support during those difficult […]

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The Teacher and Me

The Teacher and Me

I could hear his voice and that became my grounding, my root. I listened and he kept me with him although the words were just like a caress over my skin as they didn’t seem to lodge in my brain to be understood or to have a purpose. In fact […]

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Limits and boundaries

Limits, boundaries and submission

I have written generally about limits and boundaries in a post for The SafeworD/s Club. I wanted to make this post more personal to me and about a bit of a defining moment concerning my submission. More specifically it is concerning my submissive headspace, or my submissive space as I […]

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Personality Type

I am an Advocate ~ Personality Type

Finding my Personality Type Influenced by my friends, I decided to take a personality test. The personality types are based around the Myers Briggs Type Indicator, which is something we use a version of at school with the pupils. I have taken the test with them and you come out […]

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These Moments

These Moments

HL enjoys taking pictures of me. It can be a real connector although it is something that I have also struggled with. Because of the way I feel about myself it is easier to drift off and not really focus on the way that I am perceived in the present. […]

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stationery fetish

A stationery fetish

I think it was probably evident from my second to last post that life was getting on top of me. The propensity to adult and deal with adult things has been high. I feel I have hardly switched off and, where D/s would be my usual release, the times seem […]

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submissive journal

Keeping a Submissive Journal

During the first few years of submission I dipped in and out of keeping a submissive journal. It seemed like the right thing to do. I read that it was and I was told that it was, so like the good little submissive I was, I tried it. I can’t […]

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relax

Relax – recovery will come

Feeling relaxed is hard right now. There is a layer under the surface which never rests, never sleeps. I have tried yoga, and masturbation. I have tried walking and reading. I have tried new projects and focusing my energies into changing things and taking back control, but there is a […]

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process emotions - F Scott Fitzgerald quote

Writing to process emotions

A block on the blog front Writing, blogging in my case, is a way to process my emotions and, in doing so, to deal with them. Recently there have been things that I wanted to say, but this has not been the forum for my words. It has been difficult […]

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COVID-19

What are we left with? – COVID-19

I wasn’t sure about taking part in Brigit’s prompt of Love and Life in the Times of Corona. I felt that I had written enough about COVID-19 and how it affected me at the beginning and I have sort of run out of steam with it, but really, that should […]

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Love, life, music

Love, life and music

I don’t know where to start with the challenge of creating a soundtrack to my life. I have loved and listened to so many different tracks and artists over the time and many of have developed a personal significance to me. I suppose there are always moments which stand out […]

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Being missy - Me, myself and her

Me, myself, and her – being missy

She is me and very much me, but I am not always her. I don’t know if that makes sense or not but I hope that it does. Being missy is an important part of me and, really, she has always been there although I didn’t see her there before […]

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picture perfect

Picture Perfect – avoiding the negatives

My issues with my body mean that things are never going to be picture perfect for me. The chances of any picture meeting the grade are slim, and there are always a lot of casualties along the way. This is hard for HL, who is often the photographer. I get […]

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libido on lockdown

Is my Libido on Lockdown?

I had hoped that being isolated with HL all day would allow us to ramp things up a bit sexually, but the current lockdown seems to have had the opposite effect and led to a loss in libido. I am not sure if I am alone in this, but it […]

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seeing the sun hot tub

Seeing the sun

Things recently have been tough on all of us in different ways. In some senses it has felt that the slower, more basic pace of life has been a helpful breather, but in others, it is if we are existing in a pressure cooker of emotions. It has been a […]

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change

D/s on Lockdown – dealing with change

I have learnt, the hard way, that a D/s relationship is very susceptible to change. I know that all relationships require adjustments and tweaks in order to accommodate change, but I think, for us at least, the tight sense of structure and routine that supports a D/s lifestyle is easily […]

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Diary 1st April

Seven days in April ~ Day One

I know that today is not the 1st April, but this is an extract from the diary that I have been keeping. 1st April I woke at 3am again. This has been happening for the past three weeks. I try not to let my mind switch on, but something pricks […]

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