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The A to Z Challenge 2019. Follow April’s submissive training journal as she travels through the alphabet during her stay at the submissive training school to complete the novice programme.
Although the posts are based in a fictional setting of a submissive training school, the content is based on real life experience and knowledge about the aspects of Dominance and submission which are covered.
Z is for Zone While I was really excited for the party we knew was going to take place, there was still some learning to be done. The lesson for this final session was on being able to be in the zone, or in other words, being able to access […]
Y is for Yoni Balls I can’t believe I am nearly at the end of this journey. I feel I have learnt so much, and yet, there is still so much out there for me to take on. Today was about all things Y but the best part was the […]
X is for Xylophone Mallets I wasn’t sure where the letter X was going to take us but fortunately for me, it took me not only back onto the St Andrew’s Cross, but also to an improved understanding of the idea of pervertables, and an amazing experience with a set […]
W is for The Wand One of the toys that has not been used yet is the wand. We learnt that a wand is a personal massager and is one of the most popular toys amongst those engaging in BDSM play. I had used different vibrators before but nothing the […]
V is for Vulnerability I have been shocked by how vulnerable I have allowed myself to become these past weeks. I have opened myself up emotionally, physically and sexually and I have been astounded by how this has made me feel. We talked a lot about vulnerability in class today and […]
U is for Unexpected This entire experience really has allowed me to be more open to the unexpected. I realise how much I have held myself back in the past by needing to know the outcome and the direction of things. It is hard to trust that things will be […]
T is for Tens Tutorial I was pretty scared of the thought of electricity before today’s lesson. I think the image of a submissive in a dungeon, restrained, with electrodes attached to their nipples somehow found its way into my mind and was fuelling my fear. What we learnt today […]
S is for Sensory One of the key things that I have taken away today is the need to slow down, to switch my brain off from all distractions, and to use my senses as a way of experiencing sexual pleasure. What we have been talking about is experiencing every […]
R is for Roleplay Today, one of the things that we talked a lot about was roleplay. I am not much of an actor but we watched a few demonstrations this morning and it has made me change my mind a bit. I am able to see now that if […]
Q is for Questions The content of our learning was a little different today. We were not in class as usual and the lesson was not delivered by the teachers. They told us that they had arranged for us to speak with submissives who were currently in D/s relationships so […]
P is for Positions It was explained to us today the value of being able to assume a particular position from a single command. Obviously some of us may ultimately want to end up in a long term D/s relationship, but we may also wish to have relationships which are […]
O is for Objectification Really, yesterday was excellent preparation for today, and I found that it helped to have some previous experience to draw on for what took place today. I was able to connect more easily with the discussion about objectification and the different forms that it could take. […]
N is for Nyotaimori Today’s class was packed with further information to cover the letter N, but to follow, the practical was a bit different. In order to show our appreciation for Master Haruki, we were to demonstrate what we had learnt about Nyotaimori. Although being completely different to the […]
M is for Mental Bondage Today has been all about the power of the mind. Two of the things which really interested me were mindfucks and mental bondage, and the latter was part of the practical session today so I was lucky enough to try it. I think I am […]
L is for Lap Dance Today was a surprise. When I was told that we were each to perform an erotic dance, I pretty much froze inside. I was so scared and didn’t think it was something that I would ever be able to do. We had covered all sorts […]
K is for Kinbaku What we saw today is something that will never leave me, although I am not sure it will be something I ever get to experience myself. We were privileged to be able to learn about kinbaku, the Japanese art of rope bondage, from a Master who […]
J is for Journal One of the things covered today was the value of keeping a journal, especially when you are in a new relationship. It seems to be quite commonplace for a submissive to be asked to do this and to make the journal available to the Dominant which […]
I is for Impact The highlight for me today, was an impact carousel workshop. During this time, there were a number of stations set up around the room where you could move around and sample the various impact sessions. We were in a much bigger room this time, one I […]
H is for Humiliation If you had asked me before today whether or not I liked to be humiliated, I would have said no. Humiliation is the embarrassment and shame you feel when someone makes you appear stupid, or when you make a mistake, often in public, and who would want to feel like that? […]
G is for Glass One of the things that we learnt about today was glass toys. Apparently using glass to make dildos is not a new thing and the nuns of 16th Europe filled them with warm water to ‘calm the flesh’ and ‘satisfy themselves as well as they could’. […]