A to Z Challenge – N
A to Z Challenge – NMy first N is NUDITY. Nudity is something that HisLordship loves and wants more of. I struggled with it initially but have made leaps and bounds of late. When I did my submissive advent calendar for him, I included naked piano playing and a naked bake which he loved. There have been various other instances where I have pushed myself or when he has pushed me and one of these was in allowing him to take pictures of me in various states of undress. For someone who was uncomfortable being viewed naked at the beginning this has been huge progress and it has culminated in me posting various pictures as part of my Throwing Caution to the Window project.
My second N is NEED and this is something that has also been challenging for me. As a strong and independent woman, to allow myself to ‘need’ anyone was tricky – being honest it still is. This is something that has certainly come from D/s though and in allowing Sir to see my vulnerability I have gained a huge amount. It felt unfamiliar at first to admit that I felt more needy of him, but as I now see the benefits to the relationship it has become a positive thing. I need him now both physically and emotionally, not to survive or to manage, but to be truly happy and to live the type of life that I want to. The post, i need You, is about how that feels.
My final N is NIPPLE PLAY. Nipple Play, as I explain, is not something that I ever wanted prior to my relationship with HL but that is something else that has changed. I love the way that he will pinch or bite or pull them and even enjoy the cane or the flogger on them now. He has always said that he loves them but that was something I found hard to accept. I felt they were ‘ruined’ through years of breastfeeding so I am glad that finally I am able to shift my thinking a bit, accept that his opinion matters, and enjoy what he does with them.
I hope that reading my letter N has been nice. Check tomorrow for the letter O and to see the rest of my A-Z, click here: A to Z Challenge.
Naughty and Nice – Naturally ?
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Honestly it is amazing how we all see only faults with our bodies. I thought your nipples were fantastic when you showed them the other day. Something to be proud of and yet you struggle with your self perception of them.
As Sweetgirl says, this post was narly!!
Thank you. I agree it is interesting that we don’t see ourselves at all as others do. It would be even more interesting if we could. Imagine that! Thank you for the positive comment too xx
O’ Now Missy Likes Knowing Jitters Involved Have Genuinely Fallen Ever Downward, Ceasing Being Annoying!
Curious to see if I could pull that inversion out of my hat. Apparently so!
Well done as always ma’am.
Always impressive with your way with words ?
Head hasn’t worked well at some points in certain areas lately. No clue as to what made it hit me as a way to comment but it seemed a good way to look back and acknowledge your efforts to point. Thank you for the time put into your post.
I know that you have struggled with recovering the way you feel your head used to work so perhaps this is another sign that things are moving forward for you. I do hope so. ❤️
Thank you ma’am.
I think a naked bake is a great idea!
Nipples… I wrote a short series of posts about my relationship with my breasts (it starts here, if you’re interested: http://mrsfever.com/2016/05/16/breasts-personal-narrative/ ), and while nipple play is not *fully* off the table, it’s also not something I’m particularly into for various reasons. Sometimes I feel like the only narrative readily available though, in fiction writing as well as in kink communities, is “Boob manipulations are AWESOME.” So to read a real person’s honest not-love is refreshing. 🙂
Oooo thank you Mrs Fever. I will definitely check that link out after work today ?
I love nipple play and for years I thought they were not sensitive at all, until Master T started pinching them. I tell you, they got more sensitive because of that!
Rebel xox
I know. Isn’t it just so weird how that can happen. ?