A to Z Challenge – E
E was a little bit harder and I didn’t have to whittle my selection of things that I wanted to write about down as much. I don’t think that EXPECTATIONS are a D/s related thing as such. More they area a relationship related thing but none-the-less they are something that I have thought and written about before. A large part of this will be to do with the fact that at the beginning I was trying to turn a kind of fantasy idea in my head based on what I had read, into something that would work for us in real life and this led to me examining my Expectations and trying to keep them under control.
EXPOSURE is something that you need to be prepared for if you decide to take on a submissive role. You have to be open and honest about what you think and what you feel, and that can be very exposing. From this sort of exposure comes huge growth so it is a good thing as far as I am concerned but it is also something that can make you feel a bit uncomfortable as your boundaries are pushed and those parts that you usually keep hidden away for yourself are suddenly exposed. These two posts, Exposure and Exposed Photos? are two occasions when I struggled a bit.
When I wrote about drop in my letter D post, I mentioned the endorphin highs that can come from extended periods of play, especially impact play. The ENDORPHINS produced, like any drug, can be quite additive and leave you craving more. When I first heard about subspace people spoke about flying. They seemed to leave themselves behind and travel over mountains in an ecstatic state. I waited for this to happen, but for me it was never like that. I haven’t seen mountains and I never really felt like I was flying. When we use impact then I get into a really relaxed state but I am likely to reach subspace more from a forced orgasm scene than I will from pain alone. It seems that pleasure is my thing! The posts Three Hours and Hot Stuff give a bit of an idea of what it feels like for me – no mountains I am afraid but a pretty good time all the same!
I hope that the letter E has been an enjoyable read. Check tomorrow for the letter F and to see the rest of my A-Z, click here: A to Z Challenge